I’m sorry for the strain this whole thing puts on you with my mood swings and confusion. I want you to know, it’s nothing I do on purpose.
I want this to be over more than you believe. I don’t like it. I don’t enjoy it. It isn’t something that’s going to be fixed in one day, month or year. Nobody knows. Doctors don’t know. I can’t promise anything.
Either you are going to be on my side, thru thick and thin, for my highs and lows or…you’re not.
Yes. ‘Marry’ me. Take me as I am or leave me. I can’t have it however you want it. Help me. Hold my hand. That’s what I need from everyone. I don’t need to be told ‘what‘ will work. I just need suggestions. I need people by my side.
Thank you if you are. Thank you if you aren’t. Everthing is a lesson I can learn from.