Funsies, Update

Thanksgiving 2016

Happy belated Thanksgiving everyone!

All of the country, everyone ended their dinners and headed out to get a start on their Christmas shopping…with the help of black Friday. I did not enjoy this black Friday because I did not have said funds to enjoy it.

There is always next year and for the ones that do not like venturing out into the world for discounts, they have Monday to get discounts from the computer. I don’t have funds for either day but I will be promoting my Etsy store, Kaya Creationss, for Monday. Yes, we have two ‘S’s because there was another Kaya Creations on Etsy. So, we had to go with an extra ‘s.’ I don’t mind for now.

We have a Cyber Monday code available for all those looking for a different take on their gifts; anyone that’s tired of the same ol’ gifts, come on down! We are still working out some kinks and trying to get more items listed at the shoppe. Slowly but surely we’ll get there, right? Better late than never…

If you are interested, visit and take a stroll at our Etsy shoppe.

We enjoy making custom pieces, so don’t be shy to shoot us a message. We don’t mind at all and we are totally willing to work with you on whatever idea you’ve got! My sister and I enjoy this part the most. Our prices for the custom pieces might be a bit much for some but I promise it’ll be worth it! I will be adjusting some of the prices for some items but for now enjoy this code for 40% off for Monday: CYBERMONDAY16

Make sure you enter the code at checkout as it won’t be added automatically. Oh and don’t forget to follow us on the Facebook and Instagram to stay up to date! You can contact us via Facebook, Etsy or by sending us an email at kayacreationss@yahoo.com. If you have a bulk request, we can work that out too! I don’t think I forgot anything…If I find that I did, I will let you know.

Now, back to the scheduled programming…

Thanksgiving was a good one. I spent it at my aunt and uncle’s house. We had our turkey and us cousins played Settlers of Catan. I never win in that game but I enjoy it regardless. Dinner was delicious, as per usual. Nothing too crazy. Was in good company for Thanksgiving. Always a fabulous time.

I forgot to update you guys on my latest neurologist appointment! I saw Dr. Berdia last Thursday. I told him about the few baby seizures I had. I told him about what was going on at the time, how I felt, and what was happening to me. He told me that my medication had to be increased whether I liked it or not. This time he didn’t bring me to the 150mg but wanted to see how I’d do with 125mg instead. Instead of taking half in the morning and the other half at night; he told me to take 50mg in the morning and 75mg at night. He said he wanted to see how I did with that before changing my medication completely. So far so good! I feel human. My emotions are still functioning normally. I don’t remember how long it took for me to get to the point of being a robot but right now, I’m awesome. Cross my fingers I don’t have a focal seizure at this dosage. I won’t be happy and my meds will have to change. :/ We will see…In the mean time, I will continue to be hopeful! I’ll see him in March next; I’ll keep note of any changes.

Well, I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! I hope that you got the deals that you wanted! <3.

 

Update

Life is good

I’ve been pessimistic lately but since the election, I’ve been trying to be optimistic. I have been finding myself going out of my way to be positive.

I have read that if you think positively you will become it. I want to believe theĀ president elect will be better than we think. Despite what it seems, it might turn out better than we think. There’s the chance that it won’t and everyone’s worst nightmare will come true. But it might not happen. So, I’m going to keep hoping for the best. We have a president but he isn’t a dictator and we have this thing called ‘checks and balances.’ I really hope for the best. Otherwise, Canada here I come šŸ˜€ (kidding but you will find me in Turkey because it’ll be easier for me to get into that country)

Life is good. It gets hard at times but overall it’s good. We need to make effort to remember what is beautiful. Take notice of the things you may over look. You might forget it. Maybe take a picture? Don’t take too many because than you might not be enjoying the moment either.

This might be coming from the conversation that I had about this…I don’t remember exactly but I have been trying to be a good sport over this election. I am. I don’t know if this will bite me in the ass but that won’t stop me. I’m trying to trust everyone that brought Trump to be our president. Here’s to good vibes (but I will second guess everything).

I want everything to be good. I do. I am giving everyone around me that voted for Trump the benefit of the doubt. It isn’t about necessarily trusting Trump but its trusting everyone around me that voted for him. I want to trust my friends. I want to trust them that they’re looking out for not only themselves but for me and my family. If this doesn’t happen this might mean that I have lost faith in them. I don’t want to. I don’t want to lose the trust I have for my friends and family. I don’t. I really hope and wish for the best. I want everything to end up well. The 4 years will come and go before we know it. If this man absolutely sucks ass then we can not elect him for the 4 years that follow. It’s as simple as that. And if it’s that bad, well, I have faith in our government to do the right thing.

I’m trying really hard.

Update

I’m lost

I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know how to pick things up from where they left off. I don’t know how to go about anything. I know, I know, everyone is in the same boat. But not really.

Nah. We aren’t in the same boat. We’re in boats and we’re going in the same direction but it isn’t the same one. I dunno. Maybe I’m not lost after all. We’ll get to the same place but just taking different directions? This metaphor isn’t what it was in my head lol.

Theoretically, I can do so much but when I stop and really think about it, I can’t. There are so many factors that come into play that I forget sometimes. Forgetting though, doesn’t do me any favors. Yes, I can work to get over them but this is going to be a life long struggle. This is not going to happen over night. I want to work and perhaps go to school again. I can’t do either of them at the moment.

Right now, I’m in a place that I don’t have a name for. I know I can do whatever I set my mind to. I can do it. I am being pessimistic I suppose. That won’t do me any favors I believe. I am tired of being positive all the time. I am a bit defeated.

I’m defeated from the last episode of focal seizure activity I had. It became real. Things are okay tho when I have the proper dosage. I am seeing my neurologist in a week. So that will get settled in some way. But I dunno. I guess it scared me? It’s real. It’s there but I have medication to keep it at bay.

Maybe I can do all the things I want to do? I have to find ways to come to an understanding with myself. I’m tired. I’m tired of trying to make things work. It takes so much energy and I don’t even get the result I want at that moment. It’s a trial and error life I live. I need a break. I want not to think about what I need to do. I want to not worry if I will beĀ  emotionally ready for whatever comes my way.

At the moment, I can’t handle stress, excitement, sadness, or whatever in large amounts in a short amount of time. I miss enjoying my alone time. I really don’t know anymore. Going to school or work at this current state is a bad idea. Will I be okay? Will I enjoy it? I don’t know what will happen. I don’t know what to expect. I don’t know how tired I’ll be. I don’t know if my medication will always work. I don’t know if my medication is for me. I don’t know if I go to school, if I will be able to handle the workload. I don’t have the money to go to attend a school. I can’t see myself going to school for anything other than getting my PhD. I have these high standards for myself. I need to lower these standards. I do. I don’t know where to start.

I feel lost. No one knows what to suggest. I don’t know how to go about any of this. Maybe I should look more into volunteering and support groups. I need to give in, at the same time, that I need help. I need to put my tail between my legs and just get the support and help I need with this…whatever it is. :/