Feelings, Today, Update

The holiday season is here!

Let the holiday season begin! Well, it started already lol I’m a bit late…

I imagine shopping at your computer in the comfort of your own home being the best option. More and more choose to do just that. I rather be in my pajamas while shopping πŸ˜€ Bring on the holiday movies! Oh and the hot chocolate πŸ™‚ 

Didn’t have any customers at our Etsy shoppe but we will one day! Gotta stay positive, Right?

I seem to get bummed when I don’t have people reading my blog…I didn’t think I’d have that reaction but I want people to read it. I feel like I don’t have interesting things to write about or I’m boring people. Lol. I dunno. I’m bummed. 

I guess people aren’t going to be *too* into it when you’re just complaining about life or talking about things that go on in everyone’s lives. 

It’s hard work coming up with stuff to write about that will keep people interested. I can barely keep up with having an entry written the same day and time every week. That may be why people lose interest? I need to be consistent. 

I’m not sure how bloggers do their thing. How they come up with new ideas that are interesting to their readers. 

I have started so many things and have many ideas. I do it for a little bit and then I try to change it or ‘make it better.’ That causes me not to be as committed to it. I put it off and the next thing I know, I’ve failed…myself. Lol I’m hard on myself. Totally aware of it πŸ˜€

I just want better habits. I need to make my own goals important. I need to do it without putting thought into it. I wish habits became habits over night. 

That’s one thing I miss after coming home from the hospital three years ago. If I thought of something, I did it. I had to because I ran the risk of forgetting or not doing that task at all. Now? I’ve progressed. I am better. But I did not make this into a habit. I didn’t realize what I was doing and what it meant. 

I still forget. I have learned ways to cope with forgetting. I have ways to help so I don’t have to rely on my memories 100%. I don’t have an excuse. But I am finding that even though I don’t have an excuse, I bypass whatever I had planned. 

Maybe that’s a good thing that I can go off course? I dunno. I have learned that it’s not the end of the world if I do go off course. Maybe that’s why I do that. It isn’t a bad thing but I get disappointed in myself when I haven’t done the things I intended to do; I didn’t prioritized the things that are important to me. 

That then has me questioning whether or not what I think is important is truely important. I keep going back and forth about this. I have been trying to make sense of everything out but it’s hard. And I know, I know, ‘no one has life figured out.’ Were on the same course, you and i, in boats. It seems like we have the same boat but we don’t. My boat has been thru a hurricane. It brought me this far but it’s been places your boat hasn’t been. 

It is what it is and I’ll figure it out one day. I’ve got plenty of days to figure it out. Or I shouldn’t get stuck on it? Enjoy those days instead because I don’t know how many days are left in this game called Life. 

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