This morning my cousin officially became an owner of a PhD. Pharmacist Seda. I like it. Congratulations! Today is a lovely day.
At the moment, we are in upstate New York. I am tired. We were in the car around midnight. Drove all night. Well, I didn’t do the driving but I slept in the car. It wasn’t a great sleep by any means but better than nothing, I suppose. Nothing Starbucks can’t fix. I don’t know what is planned for the rest of the day after the ceremony but we’ll be busy with something.
Right now, it is 10:10am. All I can think about is sleep and when I can get it. I’ll go back to last weeks post about ’13 Reasons Why’ and how I was able to relate to Hannah…
I’m here. I haven’t ever been suicidal or made attempts. Has it crossed my mind? Maybe. Out of anger. Out of spite. It was more of ‘what would they do?’ Not healthy. I’m aware.
I can relate. Not in those terms above but when it comes to friends/family and how I feel I’m being treated by them. I haven’t been ostracized, slut shamed, or raped but I understood, I feel, the overall emotion the character was feeling. It’s not exact because no one can exactly feel what another is but you can get an idea based on your experience.
Oh and spoiler alert, just in case.
Hannah Baker was slut shamed by Jessica, her best friend. Before that, Jessica and Alex got together. They stopped hanging out or talking to Hannah, altogether. Hannah wasn’t invited or included in anything. When she did try to include the two of them it wasn’t welcoming. That I understood.
Friends/people only think about their interests and what they want to do. They aren’t your baby sitters and you aren’t their main concern. She put others first because they were ‘friends.’ Hannah, to me, seemed like she was the character that put too much value on others; she trusted too many too quickly and got hurt when they didn’t reciprocate. They didn’t say or do anything to hurt Hannah on purpose or have the intent to but Hannah took it to heart. It’s just about a person caring way too much and everyone else being regular humans.
Those that watched this show know that Hannah didn’t only kill herself because of what she explains in the tapes. There is more to what she blames others for. She is too sensitive for her own good. I dunno. I feel that I understood her sadness at times. Maybe nothing I said proves that I did get her. Maybe it’s just some projection going on. I dunno 😳