Today

Dogs…cats…fish…

I’ve always wanted a pet. When I was little, my mom and dad said I can have fish. I remember crying a whole day because my mother told me I couldn’t bring the class pet hamster home for a weekend. I remember her saying ‘what if it gets lost in the house?’ I wasn’t happy and we came to a truce when they said I can have pet fish. 

I’ve had fish up until the last of them died after my accident. I had a Ciclic of some sort. Idr what kind specifically it was but we had gotten him because in a tank full of colorful fish he was the only black one. He was so cute. We got him when we still had a 10 gallon tank but as time went by he got bigger. We eventually had my aunt give us their 50? Gallon tank. It was big and suited him well. We couldn’t go too crazy with fish bc he was big. So we gotten a few here and there for the tank but they wouldn’t last long. We got another one of his kind but a yellow one. When grad school started I kind of wasn’t doing well with taking care of him. At that point my dad said he wasn’t going to take care of the tank anymore because I was home from college. Fair enough. My fish died soon after I came home from the hospital. After that I said I couldn’t take care of them anymore, so that was the end of the pet fish. Writing about it tho makes me wanna start again…

Anyways, I have been thinking about a pet a lot lately. I want everything. I want a pet dog. I want a pet cat. Today, I want a bird and tomorrow, I’ll want my fish back. I love animals. I want them all. I want a goat. I want two goats so they have each other as a friend. I want an animal but I don’t want their fur everywhere. I probably should do fish again. Idk. Lemme sit on that for a little. 

Going back to a dog. Today, I saw a number of service dogs. Got me thinking, why can’t I get one? For doing things on my own. To calm me down when I’m over whelmed in crowded places or traveling alone. When I don’t have someone with me at all times, why can’t I have a dog with me? I don’t have to train said dog. It’ll be trained already. I wanna cry thinking about having one lol. I’m ridiculous, I know. I’d always have a travel buddy. I have a buddy there with me when I can’t handle everyone or everything. Then I start to question: do I really need one or do I just want a service dog because I want a dog? I don’t know. I’ll have to sit on this for a bit as well…maybe I’ll just have my fish in the mean time. 

Now, I have to convince everyone in the household.

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