clear the air, Feelings, Update

3 weeks…

It’s been three weeks since I last went to see my psychologist. 3 weeks. 

I realize lose my shit with people if I only miss a week. This has been 3. Christmas and NYE are part of the problem. 

Not that I talk about all my problems that I encounter during the week but whatever my issue in the end, I have an outlet. 

When I don’t have an outlet for more than a week, I don’t know what to do. 

Let’s be real, I see someone because everyone around me have lives. They don’t have time nor the energy to listen. Not that they don’t care, they simply can’t, or so I’m told. I’m sorta okay with that but it’s life. Family members all want to solve my problems for me that they forget to just listen. That I sorta have a problem with to but for another day. 

This is going to go on for the rest of my life. This isn’t going to get better. I’m going to adapt. I’m going to learn how to deal with people, slowly but surely. But I won’t be able to ever deal with everything on my own. I need to unload. I have to talk about myself and everyone around me. I have to talk about how I feel, good or bad. 

Everyone needs this but it is different. I don’t know how else to explain it. 

Everyone will turn to me and say “I know how you feel” or “everyone feels like that.” Yes, I can agree with that. Let me also remind you that I do remember how things were before my accident. I know how things were dealt with when I was normal. It’s you that doesn’t know my side. I get it, people don’t know how to relate to me anymore. People aren’t. We won’t ever have the same problems, ever. We won’t even come close to knowing what the other feels, at what intensity. 

I will always need my therapist. I will always need someone to listen to me without trying to relate to me. I will always need someone not to fix my problems. I don’t want anyone to have advice for me. I just need your ears. 

That’s all I want. I want you to listen. Let me talk. Let me unload. That’s all I want. 

Since I no one can handle my shit, I’ll pay for someone to handle it…or have my insurance do the work for me. 

Good day, ya’ll! 

Update

Welp.

Another blog entry idea slipped away. I will come up with another one but is it the one I was thinking about the other day? I will never know.

I usually write my ideas down but for that moment, I thought I’d remember it… (-_-)

As much as I want to be active and busy, at the end of it all, I can’t do what everyone else does. My whole being and week is lost all because of a few hours or having something to do two days in a row. Hypothetically, I can do it. In real life? I can’t.

On Tuesday, I had something to do in the morning, which required me to wake up early. I was on my way home with my sister and I had to help a family member with something. Now, I have no problem with helping but should I have gone?

I was tired from getting up early and being active. Then when I should have gone home I went somewhere else. I wasn’t in bed ’till 11pm. And as we all know, I can’t fall asleep, usually, under an hour. I woke up the next day and had another appointment to get to.

It was a non-stop two days. I am still recovering. I haven’t had time to just be. When I thought I would, something else would pop up.

Tonight, I have a white elephant dinner to go to only I planned it so I have to go. But I don’t know how long I will last. OH trust me… I will try to push myself because after all, I am incredibly stubborn and don’t want to miss out.

I shouldn’t see the movie after…

Back to bed I go or drink coffee? Decisions, decisions…

 

 

Update

Self promotion…

The holiday season is well along. now. I may be a bit too late but these have to find a great home. My sister and I started this glass painting mini business, over a year ago. We have a handful of wine glasses up for grabs with some cute little containers. These are great not only for the holiday but also great for birthdays and friendships 🙂

We have a few Christmas glasses up for sale as well as other festive types. We’ve got some for the summer, some to just hang with the girls, or one for you to enjoy yourself.

Check out our Facebook page for all of our glass products for sale. For our Christmas items, please visit our Etsy page.

If you have an idea for a custom piece, do not hesitate to send us a message with your request on our Facebook page. We welcome any questions, comments, or concerns.

Update

Happy birthday, Baby girl!

I am headed to Pennsylvania with my mother and sister for Olivia’s first birthday! 

I get to finally meet this nugget. We’ve had a few FaceTime sessions. It was delightful. I get to see my good friend, Stephanie. It’s been a long time. The last time she saw me I was in the hospital. I saw her last at her bridal shower a few weeks prior to my accident. 

I’ve been friends with this lady since elementary school. We don’t see each other often but we keep in touch. We have kept more in touch when I moved to Long Island, NY than elementary school. It’s funny how the world ends up working…

Oh! Physical therapy should be starting soon. I had made an evaluation appointment for tomorrow but I forgot I had a doctor’s appointment. Either way, it’ll start soon and that’ll get me into moving around more hopefully to the gym. (>_<)